Completely understand your well-contemplated and descriptive journey. I also go from 0-60. I also hate it and me for such weakness (never mind the reason or charge for being angry is often understandable). I too have C. I've heard 0-60 causes C. Look your condition up with German New Medicine. Made total sense for my situation. Says that 6 months before diagnosis something or someone enters our life that reminds us of a specific childhood trauma. If we can work the trauma out we don't need to get sick. I've had a chronic C now for 13 years. I consciously make choices to avoid people that repel or drain me. I know exactly who came into my life and who they reminded me of... but not until 5 years into the trauma drama of c and treatment. We could talk for hours about this. I've made many changes to my life in order that I can live as stress-free as possible. The little sh*t can set me off... so I keep watch and am more patient with myself than I ever thought I could be... We live. We learn. The answers do arrive. If you ever want to talk, let me know.
German New Medicine... I actually have that book and its because of that book and Gary Craig’s emofree.com that I am even able to call myself out and see where I need continued work with the “Unseen Therapist”.
I'm downloading the pdfs. I read deeply into it but never knew about the pdfs. Thanks Gail. Ah, yes. The continued work with the "Unseen Therapist." You're so cool!
Wow! Thank you for sharing, I can so relate to this!
I can go from Zen to Zany in two point seven seconds.
As for my Dx with “tumors” - that I refused to use the C word with - which kept recurring in the same area and my refusal to go the quick route of cutting out the offending part of that anatomy that kept growing them. (I fought it with claws and venom. I don’t want to be a science project for the AMA or Big Pharma!). There has to be an alternative way! And I would seek it out. Ultimately, the alternatives weren’t working because I wasn’t addressing the underlying root part of the issue. My anger. I was having trouble in the ureter area because I was always “pissed off”. (Probably goes back to early childhood with abandonment issues...)
Same with gallbladder before that--Holding anger and hardness in. So I went the allopathic route for both--eventually.
So just when I started to have a handle on learning patience and stopped being so angry and pissed off - usually at one person in particular - and was getting into exploring my shadow side and before I was even fully recovered from the ureter re-section adventure... I fall and break my hip. (OH MAN! I hate when the universe laughs - It sounds like Morgan Freeman.) Aw C’mon, really!
I’ve tried so many self-help books, looked at beautiful memes on FB and IG, had sessions with counselors, got sober, stopped smoking and tried to stop my last vice of quitting chocolate. Has it all helped? The being patient part really does take effort. A lot of conscious effort - daily.
I like the quote you wrote by Rainer Maria Rilke. “... Living some distant day into the answer.” Tells me when I can exercise and obtain a strong enough patience muscle, then, perhaps, like the dissolving pain in my hip, I will one day be walking again sans walker, then cane, to one day hands free and realize that I have reached a state of “feel good” both physically and emotionally by the absence of fear and pain and all it’s derivatives. It’s a subtleness that just happens.
I have achieved that state from time to time before. But it sure would be nice to live there and make it my home.
Completely understand your well-contemplated and descriptive journey. I also go from 0-60. I also hate it and me for such weakness (never mind the reason or charge for being angry is often understandable). I too have C. I've heard 0-60 causes C. Look your condition up with German New Medicine. Made total sense for my situation. Says that 6 months before diagnosis something or someone enters our life that reminds us of a specific childhood trauma. If we can work the trauma out we don't need to get sick. I've had a chronic C now for 13 years. I consciously make choices to avoid people that repel or drain me. I know exactly who came into my life and who they reminded me of... but not until 5 years into the trauma drama of c and treatment. We could talk for hours about this. I've made many changes to my life in order that I can live as stress-free as possible. The little sh*t can set me off... so I keep watch and am more patient with myself than I ever thought I could be... We live. We learn. The answers do arrive. If you ever want to talk, let me know.
German New Medicine... I actually have that book and its because of that book and Gary Craig’s emofree.com that I am even able to call myself out and see where I need continued work with the “Unseen Therapist”.
I'm downloading the pdfs. I read deeply into it but never knew about the pdfs. Thanks Gail. Ah, yes. The continued work with the "Unseen Therapist." You're so cool!
We’re in the 4th quarter. I think most of us are feeling about the same way, whether we admit it or not.
Thanks for keeping us normal.
Wow! Thank you for sharing, I can so relate to this!
I can go from Zen to Zany in two point seven seconds.
As for my Dx with “tumors” - that I refused to use the C word with - which kept recurring in the same area and my refusal to go the quick route of cutting out the offending part of that anatomy that kept growing them. (I fought it with claws and venom. I don’t want to be a science project for the AMA or Big Pharma!). There has to be an alternative way! And I would seek it out. Ultimately, the alternatives weren’t working because I wasn’t addressing the underlying root part of the issue. My anger. I was having trouble in the ureter area because I was always “pissed off”. (Probably goes back to early childhood with abandonment issues...)
Same with gallbladder before that--Holding anger and hardness in. So I went the allopathic route for both--eventually.
So just when I started to have a handle on learning patience and stopped being so angry and pissed off - usually at one person in particular - and was getting into exploring my shadow side and before I was even fully recovered from the ureter re-section adventure... I fall and break my hip. (OH MAN! I hate when the universe laughs - It sounds like Morgan Freeman.) Aw C’mon, really!
I’ve tried so many self-help books, looked at beautiful memes on FB and IG, had sessions with counselors, got sober, stopped smoking and tried to stop my last vice of quitting chocolate. Has it all helped? The being patient part really does take effort. A lot of conscious effort - daily.
I like the quote you wrote by Rainer Maria Rilke. “... Living some distant day into the answer.” Tells me when I can exercise and obtain a strong enough patience muscle, then, perhaps, like the dissolving pain in my hip, I will one day be walking again sans walker, then cane, to one day hands free and realize that I have reached a state of “feel good” both physically and emotionally by the absence of fear and pain and all it’s derivatives. It’s a subtleness that just happens.
I have achieved that state from time to time before. But it sure would be nice to live there and make it my home.